I've wanted to do something crazy, wild, and completely different with my waist length hair, that was full of split ends, for several years now, but just haven't a) had the money to go to a professional hairdresser, and/or b) had the courage to actually follow through. So it's been put off time and time again, and I'd pretty much given up doing anything adventurous to try and throw myself out of the same old rut I seem to keep falling into. Then on Friday I was at the library and came across a book on how to cut your own hair, had a brief flick through and decided it was worth getting it out. That night I sat and read it properly and decided it didn't look THAT difficult, and that if I continued to wait until I had both the money and courage to do it, it was probably never going to happen! The seed had been planted... I know of several others who cut their own hair, surely I could too? I don't tend to leave the house much anyway, so if I made a disaster of it, I'd just throw a hat on or stay at home more until it'd grown out again. I went to sleep wondering if I would actually go through with it... really wanting to do it, but not sure if I could get past the fear of stuffing it up and getting laughed at. The lack of self confidence was playing ping pong with my determination that I wanted a change... and a BIG one.
By the time I woke up and had my shower, I was still wavering a little... I had been like this for so long now, the thought of looking different, despite hating how I looked, was rather terrifying... but oh so tempting.
|Remember this photo from an earlier blog post??|
|Crappy cellphone photo...|
|See the waves?|
It's since been washed, played with plenty, slept in... and I still love it. I didn't wake up this morning feeling the need to change it, or regretting what I'd done or anything. I feel free, and happy.. and all because I took that crazy step and cut my own hair for the first time! I don't think I'll be going to a professional hairdresser again... I know it still looks rough, but I don't care. It is my first time doing it myself after all. Normally, I'd be getting upset about it not being perfect, ignoring the whole "1st time ever" fact, and focusing more on how it's not perfect straight away! Not this time.. for some reason, I've been able to let that part go, and just enjoy the freedom of doing something this big, and liking the results. I know some people may get annoyed with me "prattling on" about something as "trivial" as a simple haircut... but for me, this IS big! Both the doing it myself, and the fact that I'm NOT feeling all that self conscious about it. Big steps... hopefully the start of more to come.
The end result...
|Look.. you even got a smile at the camera!!|
|The sides and back are a bit rough.. but this will hopefully improve as I practice more|
|Happy "girlie" feeling me!!!!|
|Mr4 just had to join in with the photos!|